It’s been almost 3 weeks since this thing with Mia started. Since then, I’ve spent pretty much every day stressed, exhausted and worried. I’ve been sitting by my phone all week waiting for a call about her biopsy results (which are still not in, btw). It’s been a really long 3 weeks, and I’m still sitting by my phone.
But I need to get back on track. I haven’t been cooking because I just haven’t had the energy. But I miss it. And I miss going home and knowing exactly what I’m going to have for dinner every day. We’ve been doing the “stare at the freezer and fridge for 20-30 minutes just to end up going with pasta or grilled chicken and a rice packs” bit and it’s starting to drive me nuts. I think I may be meal planning for the rest of my life. 🙂
I’ve also put the workouts on hold. I think I’ve gone twice in the last three weeks. Again – my energy is low. I know, if I go workout, it’s going to help keep my energy up. But getting that motivation to actually go has been pretty difficult.
So – starting next week, things are going to change. Mia is still and always will be a very high priority, but I need to take care of myself as well. I feel like I’ve spent half my time walking around like a zombie.
I’m still worried, stressed, tired… but maybe getting back into my routine will help me to channel some of this into my workouts, cooking or other activities.